An accident is all it takes for me to realize that my parents are getting old. Life had not always been smooth and I really thanked them for being my pillar of strength all these years.
Now, its time for me to be their pillar of strength.
I know its not going to be easy. And the me of the past, would have already broken down in tears with the series of events that followed since yesterday. But somehow, tears did not threaten to flow from my face this time.
Went Ikea for a quick shopping and also a light snack at their small cafe.
I was munching on my hotdog when this maid and three brats kids caught my attention. The maid was frowning in the first place, and mum pointed out that the parents were missing. So I just casually said that maybe the parents were still shopping and went back to my hotdog.
Next, this totally irresponsible man in his thirties strode by the table that was occupied by the maid and the kids and just casually left his leftover cup of softdrink on the lower level of the table. I mean, this person was just few steps away from the bin and he have to be so lazy to leave the cup, at other's tables also?
So the eldest of the kids went over to look at the cup (left behind by the stranger). There must be some leftover in the cup...as the next thing i know the boy took a sip from the cup. (O_O) The maid, needless to say, failed to notice.
I laughed myself silly then when the other 2 younger kids tried stuffing the half of the hotdog bun into their tweeny weeny mouths. Of course they did not succeed and I laughed even harder when pieces of the bun fell out of their mouths. The maid looked over at me but she seems to have failed to notice her charges stuffing themself silly thou. Ok, you can call me mean i guess but I have zero feelings for brats.
Next, papa and mama arrived. Mama was too busy looking over her purchase at ikea (see, her goods are more important than her own kids) while papa was busy nursing his stomach. Maid is gone. Now, the youngest boy found the cup too. Apparently there was STILL some drink left. So...the youngest boy proceeded to emptying the cup of softdrink. (O_O) --> this is the only face i can managed.
Before I left the kids' moves were still undetected. the girl was even licking a piece of paper she'd found.
What a family. And we are in a educated society. What well-behaved kids.
Apologies if you find this sudden pink-ness too hard to handle. Its been a while that my blog is coat with pink anyway. Most importantly, i LOVE the pinky-ness. (^_^)V
Read my two tags while sorting out my new blogskin and i read realise two things bout the two tags: 1. My resolutions 2007, well...it seems that i only kept to one of resolutions made. Ops. Oh well, what past is past. i'd have to make a new 2008 resolutions and stick to it. PROMISE. 2. The composition for lucky's meal isnt exactly what I want now. Organs got to go (it might be too rich for him feed this way)and grains as carbos got to go also.
Been reading Dr. Pitcairn's New Complete Guide to Natural Health for Dogs and Cats and i'm going to make some changes to his diet. Not that i'm BARF-ing him thou. Because my family going to cringe if lucky cruches on raw meat and bones. But the book is sitll a good read for dog/cat owners who are thinking of more holistic way of pet-keeping.
Bought Lucky down to the Ju-ma today for a quick grooming. She bought one of her showdogs, Omen, down for a walk and Omen's simply gorgeous! The fur and gait! :)
Told Juma to groom Lucky down to a puppy cut since i've simply no time to groom him before i rush off to work every morning. Anyway, he always gives me this weird 'sad-dog' look during grooming every morning so i guess the puppy cut (without his topknot) suits him more. He's been acting all moody because of my long working hours again. :( Putting him down to work using KONG toy and I do seriously hope it's going to work or I really have to resort to using BFR.
And speaking bout work...yikes. I'm seriously wondering if i can survive the 4 months working with...well...meanie C. The way she shouts at sr D really, really spooks me. Plus the way she speaks ill of senior D, behind his back, in front of me. Tut-tut. And she speaks bout keeping me till December. Well, i'm not sure if i can survive even 1 month of hell with her.
And i hope that sr D's last day at work tomorrow is going to be a pleasant affair...for me, him and Meanie C. :P
i don even have an idea of how this post should continue. but just thought that writing it down might more or less give me a clearer idea of what's happening to me. well, i hope so.
ok, i guess i should have say things have been going wrong since... i made the choice for my tertiary education. it was the wrong choice. that's the only thing i can say.
ya, so it was the wrong choice made. but i give it my best. and hope that everything will turn better. i truly believe the phrase that 'when things are so bad, they'll only turn better'. but...my 'better' never came. no, it nvr got worse. but it was stagnant.
i wonder what more can i do to help myself and get myself out of this sticky, silly mess i've self-created. this terrible question just keep coming back to me: will i stay like this forever?
i'm tired. REALLY.
tired of thinking and considering for everybody (except myself) before making a decision.
tired of being funny and all but deep inside i feel terrible.
tired of trying to run away and trying to ignore all my problems.
no, i'm not blaming anybody. because i believe its MY fault. not my parents, nor my friends or even my religion. there's no such things. when things goes wrong, only i can help myself.
just that i really have no idea how to help myself at all. perhaps to try again? or to start believing in my reglion?
i dunno.
right. i'm tired of trying to help myself.
bleah, what a lousy day.
and i end this, with a reminder to myself...to pick myself up again.
right, i've finally gotten the chance to sit down and typed a proper post for my blog. :) been so busy and tired lately that it seems impossible to complete anything, much less go online and blog. been sleeping an average of 6 hours per day for the whole week and this is simply NOT enough! i'm still thinking of ways of squeezing in more sleeptime amid my busy life... the question is.. HOW?
and there's so much i want to blog about...my grandpa, my life, relevations and also some book-keeping... but all these got to wait, i'm simply in no mood today to blog about them. :P
anyway, i've finally tried the east coast hk cafe yesterday with esther! :) we tried its shanghai dumplings, baked rice and pineapple buns. the dumplings and baked rice are delicious! thinking about it now makes me drool. heh... the pineapple buns...i'm not sure. got to try the real autentic hk-prepared ones before i could comment. but both of us are definitely going back for MORE. that's because the food we ordered and eaten yesterday didnt even made up a quarter of the menu! there's still the claypot rice, claypot porridge, noodles and many desserts to try! woo~ (^_^)
went amk hub after tomb sweeping just now and had lunch at one the restaurants there. the restaurant is set in the scene of those period dramas village. definitely a interesting place to eat. bought donuts from another shop home to ate. i tried one of the donuts already. one with oreo cookie sprinkled on top. not bad. however, is there a need for lots of people to go ga-ga over them??
and i've been thinking over and over... to get a hamster or bunny as a pet. well, its still a thought for now. i guess i would have to do more research on bunnies first before i decide. also, i cant simple dump the bunny shld i decide to leave sg in a few years time. and i wonder if people do export pet bunnies overseas??
"The Dursleys had everything they wanted, but they also had a secret, and their greatest fear was that somebody would discover it..."-Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone, jkrowling
in case u've yet read this book, the dursleys were afraid people to know that they are related to the potters.
sometimes i do feel so like the dursleys! no, i don have everything i want. but...i'm afraid of having people know my relatives. except that i find the potters are fine, not like MY trouble- bringing relatives...tsk tsk.
yes, saturday's dinner made me realise it. luckily they didnt go to the church in the afternoon that day. goodness know what they'll say.
ok, i shall stop here. terrible as they might be sometimes, they are my elders and do deserve some bit of respect.
--- km: thanks for informing me. will update your link later. hope u see this msg here. coz i went to your blog and there was no tagboard for me to tag.
