Saturday, August 14, 2004
archived enlightenment...
figure out something today that i should have known bout 4 years ago: what you do might not please everybody, what matters is you are please. yup, i'm getting tired of having to think of whether everyone will be happy if i do this, if i do that. now i realised that i cant make everybody happy, so best is me myself is happy and what i'm doing is not at the expense of others. could have say i've achieved enlightenment...haha
got back our phy prac book today and saw what mr yeo wrote for me at the end of an experiment. he wrote something like believing i could do it if i worked harder... really touched of him to believe in me even though i've been giving him shit results. really, really touched... and really thankful that i've teachers like him, mr ang and ms kwok... they really spur me on... thanks alot!!! no wonder they relate teaching to the starfish story coz its the individual difference that matters...
fed the kitten (called him muffin) after school today and i can say that we really bonded! so proud of him! managed to lure him out of the drain and he ate beside me today. proud that he knows that i meant no harm to him. coz he's still hesitant bout other people. then he was eating halfway when he suddenly went to a nearby tree, dig a hole, pooed, then cover the hole and come back to eat. cute. then he was oh-so-curious bout my shoelace yet still afraid of me. but of course curiosity finally got the better of him... haha. still so proud that he recognizes me!!!!
well, animals, they can do wonders to you. and here's a theory i've worked out bout them: open ur heart to them, they give u a 110% return. open ur heart to humans, 80% at most... sometimes its sooo weird that i could communicate well with other species but failed with my fellowmen... WEIRD!!!
and maybe i should start chanting (or praying) again... aunt says this purifies the mind... making u less of harbouring evil thoughts... not that i'm planning to kill someone or whatever... but its just nice to have a pure, innoccent mind...
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